I'm really sorry to hear this, Max, like others in the TBB community we have enjoyed your entertaining posts over the years. One of our community group also suffers from depression, it's an illness that can affect anyone just like any physical illness, it's not your fault and I'm glad to hear you have found help.
Could I suggest that you try and walk a mile or two daily, it really helps keep your body moving and your circulation healthy. I hope you recover soon and we look forward to reading your posts again. All the very best -- Mike